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Running

IMG_5199When Travis got sick.  I started losing weight.  I wasn’t even trying.  I’ve always had a hard time losing weight.  I’ve noticed that when I am sad.  I don’t want to eat.  Stress makes my stomach upset.  I even stopped going to Weight Watchers.  Now that it has been two months since Travis died, the weight is coming back.

So this week I thought this is dumb to just sit around.  Travis wouldn’t want me to just sit around.  On Monday I decided to go for a run.  I started my Couch to 5K app over.  The run felt so good!  I decided to go back to Weight Watchers.  This is the new me! My mind and body feel so much better.

I am on day three!  Yesterday, Chloe and I went for a walk, but I drank too much coffee.  We were gone for 20 minutes, before heading back to the house.  Today was my second run.  Everyday it gets a little easier.  I’m going to run 3 times a week.  Maybe I can get my soccer star daughter to run with me on Friday morning.  She will leave me in the dust!

This is my new healthy life!  I think Travis would be proud.

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Morning Pages Day 1

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As I ride in the car to my husbands funeral in Nebraska. I’m so angry that I have to do this again. Why? Dear God, I want to know why you think I need to do this again. I feel like this isn’t fair. Not just to me but to my children. I wanted a father for my girls. Maybe I did something wrong, but they did not. My dream was to be a wife with a husband and children. I wanted to be a mommy. We needed support of a husband and father. 

  I thought I found that in Travis. He was a good father. The girls loved him. We were starting to become a family. The girls would sit with Travis and watch tv. I had someone to cook more than macaroni and cheese for. I had someone to talk to before bed. That is something I missed before I married Travis. I miss holding his hand and feeling safe in his arms. Why is this happening?