I still have to be mommy.  Mommies don’t have time for a breakdown.   We have to go to soccer practice and dance at the same time.  Luckily, I have made some friends in our small town that will help.   Last year Travis took one to soccer and I took the other to dance. I felt so good to co-parent.   I finally had help.  Divide and conquer!   Now that is all gone. I am a single parent again.  That really sucks! 

I’m a chauffeur again. Running around begging for people to help me. I don’t like asking for help. It gives me anxiety. I want to do it all.  I want to be Wonder Woman. The fact that I can’t makes me irritated.  I don’t feel like I am being a good mommy right now. 

3 thoughts on “Grief does not stop for Mommyhood!”

  1. This is a beautiful watercolor, BTW.

    There was a viral FB video not too long ago about a newly single mom and how she felt so guilty for just feeding her kids frozen dinners and putting them in front of the tv so she could go cry. Then her therapist said to her, “Wow! you are such a wonderful mommy! Putting your kids first like that, making sure they have something to eat even tho you can’t eat a thing right now, letting them watch their favorite shows to spare them the pain of seeing their mom upset.” It’s true, if you think about it. There are kids out there who would love to have a mom who just, you know, IS THERE. Not selling herself on a street corner for meth money, you know?

    And what’s wrong with letting them see you cry once in a while, anyway? They know their mom is human. It teaches them valuable life lessons: it’s normal and healthy to grieve. Wouldn’t they think it’s pretty weird, even scary, if you weren’t grieving?

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