Today is going to be better! I actually feel like I cleaning. That might be because I’m on my third cup of coffee. Yes, it is 10:00 on a Friday. I am still drinking coffee.  That is about to stop, because I’m out of creamer.  I don’t feel like going to the store with my daughters. Hot tea is next.  

Yesterday I let myself fall into a hole.  I guess we all have days like that. They are getting farther apart. That may be because it has been two months since Travis died. I must still be in that fog of grief. 

I don’t remember two months after Shan died. I don’t remember, because I had a one and a three year old. This time I have beautiful nine and eleven year olds. They still keep me very busy. They just don’t need constant help. 

We do need to get out of the house. Where should we go? It needs to be something free. In the sunshine. Sunshine lifts your mood. Where? Maybe a park we have never been to.  I kind of want to go Geocaching. 

I know the girls will moan and groan. The preteen will want to stay home.  She never wants to move on to the next place. She wants to stay wherever she is. Right now she is snuggled up in her bed. We are all still in our pajamas. This is how we procrastinate. Then nothing gets done. Then it is 5:00 and we are still in our pajamas. So it is time to get up. Ready set go!